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ITRadio

IT’s been a couple of months now that Frosty has retired as co-host from ITRadio, and I’m showing no signs of stopping the show.  ITRadio’s my baby, my outlet, my way of forgetting about work and the stupid shit going on in my life.  I’ve been brainstorming ideas left and right with friends, and even throwing ideas to Frosty to get his opinion. He may be done co-hosting, but I know he still cares about the show, and will give me an honest opinion on an idea.

I’ve been running with the “2 Mics, 1 Graeme” idea for a few shows now and I’m enjoying talking to myself, I mean my brain. I wasn’t sure how it would turn out at first, but I think it has some serious potential.  Some think it might be hard to hold a conversation with yourself, but that’s me. People wanted to know what it was like to “get inside Graeme’s/Weird Cookie’s” head, and this is it.  I trash talk myself.  Oh yeah, and Weird Cookie may have left wrestling, but there’s no difference between the two names. Graeme is Weird Cookie and Weird Cookie is Graeme. (sorry for the mini WC tangent there).

I love that ITRadio is still an underground show, but I would love to sell out. As much as I am/was against a structured show, I need to create that for the show. I’ve been having brainstorm sessions with friends for months now, and I feel bad because we come up with great ideas, but I never utilize them. I want to play promos/commercials for sponsors. I want to (and am) bringing back the ITRadio Rock Paper Scissors Intercontinental Championship Challenge. I want to bring my music to the show that I create (which will also work for FeedThisBlog). With all this said, I want to do it in such a way that I still enjoy what I’m doing.  Even if I lose every fan, friend, and listener of ITRadio, I would still do the show if I enjoyed it as my outlet!

FeedThisBlog.com

As you may know, FeedThisBlog.com came out of the code name for a new ITRadio WordPress layout earlier this year, and once I decided to roll with the idea of a new website I had a picture in my head of where I wanted it to go. The only thing I lacked was the drive, motivation, and time.  Sure, IT should be easy to write my thoughts. Hell, I spout shit from my mouth on a weekly basis with ITRadio, how hard should IT really be?  Hell #2, I used to LiveJournal/blog like crazy while I was still in school & wrestling (http://weirdcookie.livejournal.com) and I had no problem writing down my daily thoughts and actions. I don’t need to question why I stopped writing, but instead I need to set a game plan for the site.

I want this site to be very “Graeme driven”, not that ITRadio isn’t “Graeme driven,” but the behind the scenes thoughts and ideas from me and more of a “check out what I’ve done” type of site.

I’ve created hundreds of song ideas  using Ableton Live in the past 7 years, and I keep meaning to post them, but I never do.  I write/compose/create tracks using royalty-free samples, as well as my own ideas using MIDI, my keyboards and soft synths.  I should just start turning them in to MP3′s and have them be released on a weekly basis.

I’ve created HTML (not freehand by any means, thanks Dreamweaver) websites before Geocities was even around for my own enjoyment and I want to post the sites that I’ve done, as well as the WordPress themes that I’ve created over the past 4 years. Both with the original layout image and what I used as the final design.
All in all, everything comes down to MOTIVATION and PROCRASTINATION.  The motivation is there, and I don’t think it’s a matter of procrastination that is limiting me in what I do, but I get overwhelmed with even the smallest of challenges.  If you don’t believe me, you should hang out with me when I’m trying to clean my room/studio.

Thanks for reading this, and please, if you have any ideas that can help me with any of my projects, or you would like to lend your help and support, let me know.  I use ITRadio and FeedThisBlog as outlets for what is inside my head.  I know not everything I do will spark the interest of everyone, but I hope there are some things you can enjoy, even if it’s a 30 second track of “noise,” or seeing how many times I can say “fuck” (or “phuck” depending on my mood).

I wanted to share this with you, because I really like how I wrote it and the story that it tells.  If you know me, and my Weird Cookie past, this might make sense, but I think it’s a great read, even if you don’t know who I was writing about… Enjoy!

In the moment called life, things happen, things change, people grow older, become more aware, and do the thing called change. In the past 2 weeks, at least two people have left the wrestling world, myself being one of them. Myself, I quit, not because I have ‘lost interest’ in the sport or it’s ‘not fun anymore,’ I quit because I’m 20 years old, have a music career ahead of me and wrestling will always be there. But earlier in the week of August 5th, too tired to remember what day it was, Indy wrestling lost a great person to ever set foot into the wrestling ring.

This man whose career started in mid ‘99 was a great one. A man who was undefeated in a federation he worked for, a man who was the fear of many wrestlers, a man who… wait a min, who am I kidding.

I am not here to give you, my site viewers/fans a bullshit commentary that I was originally going to ‘put over’ this certain ex-wrestler. I’m Weird Cookie; I stand by my word and tell it like it is. It has been said by me before, if you don’t like what you see here, don’t come back or don’t continue reading my page.

So, the House of 7’s has quit wrestling for what, the 3rd time? In his 2 years in wrestling he has quit 3 different times, and 2 times, because he ‘lost’ interest in the sport. So, why the hell did he come back? Don’t ask me, I sure as hell am not his agent. This time because all of a sudden after a ‘flame’ war, he lost his interest in wrestling.

Ok, I understand people can lose interest in things, but usually that is forever and never go back until YEARS have passed. Many people QUIT/RETIRE and never go back, unless they just can’t give it up. But I think this person is trying to beat Ric Flair, Terry Funk, Hulk Hogan and various others in a ‘coming out of retirement’ race. So far, comparing the ICONS of wrestling I just mentioned, probably did not quit in their first two years of wrestling, so the House of 7’s did do something they did not.

Speaking of icons, the House of 7’s is an icon. He’s an undefeated champion. But why is that? Because ‘things’ would come up and the title would be forfeited, or an ‘injury’ would occur. And what kind of injury would occur that would have 6 months of down time but out of nowhere, heal in 6 days with no leg brace and/or limp? I’m no doctor, but I think someone hit my funny bone.

When my ‘knee’ injury occurred early ‘01, I did an angle with it. Someone, being Killer Claw, ‘tore’ my ACL, but in reality, I needed surgery, and came back to manage Mason Diggs as soon as I could. Giving no bullshit excuse that I ‘quit’ wrestling. I did just what the ‘big boys’ of wrestling do all the time. REAL ANGLES. My life does not, nor does 95% (my figure) of the workers out there; revolve around wrestling being ‘real.’ Titles are nothing. You will not become the pope or president if you held a title. Promoters will not look you at as some sort of ‘god’ in wrestling because you carried a title.

So, you couldn’t handle the heat of ‘losing’ a flame war because it wasn’t real?? What kind of BS is that man, seriously? It’s the Internet, grow up. I’m 20 years old, telling how I feel, not hiding behind a shell, yet I do wish I was a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle and had turtle powers (turtles have shells, get it, well I do, this is my page), but the point I’m trying to get across is, the internet is a shell if you make it out to be, but the shell you give yourself if you give yourself one, can mess your chances with life down the road!

The moral of this entire thing I just wrote is not to be the asshole that I portray on TV (Again, something I wanted to say for the fun of it), but it is to put across a point that stop your crying and hiding and let things pass. Look at my site… my live journal, you rarely hear me bitch about anything, but if I do bitch about something, it’s on my turf, not some message board that ‘marks’ go out to. In some ways, I shouldn’t even be writing this because I’m done with wrestling for a long time, but it is something on my mind, and this is my turf, so I felt I should post. No names, other than mine have been posted in this writing, so this could be about any one wrestler out there. But I’m going to hit the buffet right about now, see if I can’t rustle up me some human worm babies.

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I love hot dogs (or the way I say IT: hut dogs), but not just any kind of hot dogs. I love the hot dogs that used to be 3 for $1 rotisserie style hot dogs from Kwik Trip gas stations in WI.  I loved these hot dogs and once I moved to Minnesota, the only times I would have them would be on road trips. There are Kwik Trips in Minnesota, but IT’s not the same and they’re not close to where I live. During my Indy Pro-Wrestling days, I had created an urban legend with my obsession with Mtn Dew and the Kwik Trip Hot Dogs. The only thing about the urban legend stories, were the fact they were real.

I didn’t start eating the Kwik Trip hot dogs until 1999 when a friend showed me the “rock star breakfast/lunch/dinner.” I would eat them as often as I would eat Taco John’s while still living in Wisconsin.  The hot dogs were just regular Oscar Mayer wieners that Kwik Trip sold in their store.  What drew me to them? I don’t know, but I had to have them any time I would go to a Kwik Trip. IT was my obsession at the time and I don’t even know if the word obsession is a strong enough word to  describe my need to have them.

I moved to Minnesota in 2000 and that was also the same time I was involved with an Indy Pro-Wrestling federation that did the majority of their shows in Wisconsin and many of them were in my hometown of Eau Claire. So, I would be traveling around Wisconsin at least two or three times a month and every weekend I would have Kwik Trip hot dogs.  In fact, I’ve eaten at almost every Kwik Trip that Eau Claire and surrounding cities had. Even to this day, if a new Kwik Trip opens, I have to have the hot dogs, no if, ands or buts!

I made it part of my Weird Cookie (my wrestling name) gimmick, which wasn’t a gimmick at all. I have a LiveJournal that I would update throughout the week in between school and the wrestling shows. I would talk about the stupid road trip stories that Horace the Psychopath, Rain and I would have and the trips to Kwik Trip. And it never was just hot dogs alone, there would be the Mtn Dew that would be talked about, too.

I don’t know what kind of influence I had, but I had instant messages from fans turned friends that said they had Kwik Trip hot dogs for dinner, including a Mtn Dew to drink. IT would be one thing for them to have it for dinner, but they felt the need to tell me.

This was also the time my metabolism was going crazy! There was one weekend I had to stop at my parent’s house and pick something up. For whatever reason, I raided the fridge out of habit and they had an almost whole pizza and they let me take it.  From my parents place, we drove to the nearest Kwik Trip that was 5 min away. By the time we parked, I ate half of what was left of the pizza when I got it.  We went in to the Kwik Trip, purchased my hot dogs and some junk food and waited for the others to pay.  When I made it to the car, I hit up the trash can to throw away the hot dog tray gimmick. I ate all the hot dogs while waiting.   After that, finished the rest of the pizza, my junk food and I was still hungry.

Recently, I met up with my family at a Kwik Trip in between Minneapolis and Eau Claire.  After my dad gave me whatever I needed to pick up from him, I had to run inside to use the bathroom. Not sure why, but he and my sister waited until I came back out to leave. During that time, my dad turned to my sister and asked if I was buying hot dogs.  She said, probably.  Sure enough, I walked out with my 3 for now $1.39 Kwik Trip hot dogs. I can’t NOT do IT. IT’s not a gimmick, IT’s real.

I love my Kwik Trip hot dogs, no matter what the price, I’ll get my hot dogs even though I have been slacking and either getting chicken and Swiss cheese sandwiches or just the jumbo dog, but rarely will I get hot dogs from any other gas station, because IT’s not the same to me. I need them from Kwik Trip or I won’t get them.